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[17 Jun 2004|03:24pm] |
Well...
I put my Blizzard (cookie dough hmmmm...) in the freezer last night, got it out a minute ago and my spoon got stuck in it. I let it sit for a minute and the bastard broke off into it! Now I have to eat around waiting for it thaw out, hopefully I don't swallow a piece of the spoon lol.
I haven't talked to any of my friends back in Trinity in a few days like Kris, Erin, or Brett...hmm I wonder what they are doing and who they are doing hahahaha...
I might have a job at Dollar General here in Lufkin, technically Hudson but still close enough. The lady told me she wants me as a definent on her list to open the new store in Hudson, maybe I'll do really good and she'll hire full-time! That would be great!
Adam and I have come to an agreement of him having 7 drinks a week (alcohol) and me only two packs of cigerettes a week. That's cool with me I need to cut back smoking a lot. He laughs at me saying that packs NOT going to last you until next Tuesday!
Anywho thought I would update and say holla at me people sometime so I know you all are a live!
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[13 Jun 2004|11:00pm] |
For all who didn't know, I am now living with Adam my boyfriend.He's a great guy. Anywho today is my birthday and I'm now 18, I can buy my own cigerettes! I could before because I had my connections but now I can do it legally so hahahahahah!! Thanks everyone..
Love me
Samuel
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[16 May 2004|06:21pm] |
Oh wow, a lot has happened lately. I have about 2 weeks left of school and then I'm off to big Nacogdoches to go to SFA this fall. I have been moved up in my class from number 8 to number 5 and finally the FINAL class ranking places me at number 4 out of 82 students. I was happy and girlie all at the same time lol.
Adam leaves tomorrow for his cruise, that bitch. Nah but it's all good I don't care, I'm sure he'll have a blast. Lyndsay is wanting to go with me to the Warped Tour this summer, but the only problem with that is Pride is the day before or after, I can't remember, oh well, but she's wanting to go with me, so she MIGHT be going to Pride. HOORAY!
Cody, is really annoying me. I want to find his rooster looking ass and stomp him so far down that he'll be spitting dirt even after he's dead. He thinks he's so "smart" I guess you could say? But in actuality, he's REALLY not, he's dumber than a box of lit matches! Yes LIT matches people.
Tomorrow night is the top ten banquett and I'm giving a speech over how my mom is the one that I admire and respect the most. It should be really nice out there, I mean c'mon free steak and potatoes? Hmm hmm good...
Oh well, I haven't updated in a really long time so I thought that I should and see how everyone and everything is doing. I miss my baby Rhi-Tard and I hope you're feeling better sweetie. I love you and hope to see you again soon!
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[06 May 2004|04:23pm] |
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OMG I had a blast last night at Blink 182! Woot, I have never had so much damn fun in my life. We saw Taking Back Sunday,Cypress Hill, and then Blink came out and ROCKED it!
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[25 Apr 2004|08:19pm] |
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I want to get away. I wish I had a car so that I could just go somewhere and be by myself for hours on end. I wish I atleast had one for a week, it just really sucks that I can't do anything that I want, when I want, and get things and do things that I need to do or get. I hate depending. I have depended on everyone else for so much, and I'm sick of it, I'm tired of people having to come to get me, I'm tired of asking people for rides, I'm tired of everything. I have a headache, I'm in my "mood" again, and all I want to do is scream and cry and get away from here for the longest time. Shit if I did have a car, I'd probably just go to the lake and sit for a week, go to Huntsville get anything I need and then turn around and come back home or sit back at the lake. I just need to get away. I've been couped up too long and I'm sick of it. I need to get a way by myself, away from here. I feel depressed again, I hate feeling like this because everyone else hates me being like this, they think it's all their fault when in all actuality it's mine. I hate myself for being like this, I hate myself period most of the time. I'm just sick of dpending on others for shit that don't involve them, why must I be the one that has to depend, why can't I be one of the lucky ones that can offer, that have so much to offer and just give out, instead I'm stuck here with nothing, just my legs and broke down personality.
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[25 Apr 2004|04:32pm] |
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A son's graduation for a bum father...
Plans to make the son happy:
Step one - Take graduation invitations and shred into very small peieces almost unrecognizable.
Step two - Put smalls pieces of invitation in to the inner envelope of card and close.
Step three - Take one black sharpee and write "YOU ARE NOT INVITED TO..see inside"
Step four - Take smaller envelope and place into outside envelope.
Step five - Write fathers name very neatley on envelope showing the elegance of the card.
Step six - Hand deliver invitation or send through mail.
Note: For best quality hand deliver and watch the father open the invitation. As he begins to read the inner envelope it is best that you slowly back off into your car or your "getaway transportation".
Step seven - Wait until graduation night to see if he shows up. If not, you have succeeded in giving the bastard a hard time.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!
P.S. This is really what I'm doing to my father for graduation.
Samuel
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I'm sick. Sick physically and mentally. I'm tired. Tired physically and mentally.
I don't know how much more I can take. Family, money, school, drama(real/play). I'm just sick and tired of it all. I don't even know where to begin with trying to fix things or help with it. I feel like all I can do is get in the way with the money situation, and family. I've been slacking at school really bad lately, and this last six weeks is the one that really matters because it determines our final GPA and ranking. I'm going to be so upset if I'm not in the top ten percent still. It doesn't really matter if I am or not for school issues, but for my own self it is more important. I know what I am capable of, I know that I could have done better in school, but instead I had to get involved in every damn ex. activity possible. Drama is almost over thank god. Thursday is public performance, I think we'll do alright, not promising too much to anyone though.
Adam and I are doing great. He's probably the best guy in the world. He wants to do so much for me, but I wont let him. I wont let him help me, and it "upsets" him I think. I'm not too sure on that anymore. But I do know that during the summer break before I start SFA I'm going to be moving down there and living with him. I can't, I love seeing him and being around him. I can't wait to leave this hell hole and go away, even if it is down the damn road, it's better that Trinity, TexASS.
I'm so sick...of the world.
Why can't people just accept things. Instead they have to blow everything out of proportion and get all hyped up about anything new that they come in contact with, whether it be inquisitive or just plain ignorance. This place is full of them, and I'm frankly tired of them. I think I should create a large bubble for the ignorant jack asses of the world, and make it so strong that anything that happens to them can't seek out and destroy anything else. Maybe I would put a nuke in there with them and watch them die. That would be grand. Bitches...
"Sickening minds discriminating against never knowing what they do. Storm of poison stunning you when bitter sweet death comes, after shooting me down with words."
~~Samuel
I think that my little quote/poem thingy suits this hole entry. I wrote that last year for english when we had to make a poem book and write our own and find others. I wrote it about ignorance, stupidity, words, and pain.
I'm going to clean myself, wash clothes, talk to Adam, eat, sleep, and wake up at 5:30 am to go to the damn high school for fecking tennis. Gah
Samuel Davis
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[22 Mar 2004|11:36pm] |
I've been in a really great mood lately. With the exception of me not having time to do anything, and being in debt almost with Balfour, and Prestige for my Pictures and my other stuff, I've still had a really good time.
I'm ready for school to let out. If these last two months don't go by pretty quick I'm going to cry. This whole school year has gone by so quickly and if these two slow me down, I'm going to be upset. But I think it will go pretty fast, I'm a busy person with all this shit to do so YAY I think it will.
I'm hopefully going to take Adam to prom with me this year. Everybody is telling me that I should take a guy, and since he's a really good guy that I should take him. I'm seriously thinking about it, and he's already told me that he would go with me. The way I see it, I can take him and just look at all the people's face there when i walk in the door with this sexy gay guy on my arm. I can't wait, he's wonderful. I'm really looking forward to prom, and afterward we are all going to come back here, eat and then tred our way down to Galveston to go camping on the beach. Then on that Monday when we start back at school, I'm going to take a College day and go somewhere, probably Sam Houston so I don't have to deal with ANYone my last week of school. I wont have to see anybody, hear all the drama that is going to be said about me, hear and see the childish shit that's going to go on at the school. Hopefully I don't have to take those damn tests, and I don't think I do right now. So hoorah!
I miss my babe Rhiannon so much. I wish she were here to see me, see me happy for a change. I just wish she were here in general so I could wrap up in a blanket and go to sleep with her again. I miss talking to her, and being able to see her gorgeous/goofy smile. Hmph, soon enough I will be going to see my baby in big Aussie or she better bring her ass back to TexASS so we can love on her again.
Well I'm going to get off of here, and talk to Adam and download some music. Later people...
Samuel
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[18 Mar 2004|07:34pm] |
Hey everyone, I'm going to Samantha's for Georgia's party.
HAPPY B-DAY GEORGE!
But yea...I'm fixing to go to a party and all, and I'm going camping afterward...maybe. I'm going with Adam, and Keki and Brett her bf are riding up to the Woodlands for the party, so WOOT. This should be a fun night. Well I'm gone, love me, bye bye
Samuel
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[15 Mar 2004|10:53pm] |
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I'm drunk again an aman i feel good. I miss my bayb Adam. he's the3 best things that happened to me since ever. I hate Eddie so much, apparently adam knows himand knows how he is well I'm going to bed and tok talk to me babe. ye
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[13 Mar 2004|08:44pm] |
Oh gawd, I got soooo phucking drunk last night. Drank almost half a bottle of Vodka, had some amoretto, and watermelon pucker. I was completely shitfaced by 10:30. It was a blast up until Adam got sick. Pooh...
Good bye
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[10 Mar 2004|10:51pm] |
I feel really sick now and I don't know why. Ugh I hate being skinny, it makes me so mad and I think that that's half my problem. I wish that I could gain weight and be normal and not look annorexic. Hmmph that's not even how you spell it I don't think. Gawd I'm so stupid.
I've been having probably the best days of my life lately this past week and a half. Everything is changing for me, school, life, everything in general. I'm just happy right now even though I feel like a big pile of poo!
I went to the Woodlands today with Rye and had an ok time up there I guess. Didn't really do much except talk about people that passed us with MESSED up hair. I'm awful I need to quit talking about people, but that's what makes me the person I am, and if you don't like you don't have to be around me then. How about that?
I think I'm doing horrible in English class. I haven't really being putting any effort towards anything, and I don't care at all. I have the biggest case of senioritis this year, is that so bad? I don't think it is. I am keeping up my grades and hoping to god and praying that by the end of this year I still have my good GPA and my spot in my class, hopefully moved up a little, and get a lot of scholarships to go to school on. If I don't get any scholarships I'm so screwed and might as well just go work for a living trying to pay off loans for the rest of my life. I need a job first to do that, to even take out a loan I have to be 18. And that's not going to happen until June. Gag...it really sucks this year too. I turn 18 on a damn SUNDAY! pooh...I was going to go out and get my first tatoo with Ryan. We were going to get the same one around our belly button, a black sun shooting flames. Since we're flamers and all haha.
Oh well...I'm going to get off of here and do some other stuff before I go to bed. I took the best bath earlier, haven't taken a REAL bath in god knows how long. I forgot what I was missing by taking all the showers I take everyday. Damn, where have I been...yummy
Samuel
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[06 Mar 2004|05:17pm] |
Had the best time last night. Hehe, and today all of my friends convinced me to go to prom and take a guy with me. It's going to be very controversial, but I don't care. If I'm going to enjoy my prom this year, I want to take someone who I actually want to be with.
So yes, that's my day, I'd go in to detail, but I musn't hehe...MWAH!
Samuel
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[04 Mar 2004|07:33pm] |
Gemini
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
The only good thing about being on an emotional roller coaster is that you never feel the same way for long. One moment you're up, the next you're down. You can't seem to figure out just what it is you want today. Rather than bringing your loved ones along on this wild ride, why not take some time away from your usual environment. You'll be a lot better off on your own. And who knows? Something more important may come out of these few moments of solitude!
...this is so true.
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[02 Mar 2004|05:29pm] |
I have so many things to do lately. I'm applying for EVER scholarship possible and I have like 14 Essays to write and good god I haven't started on any of them, I should really get hitting on those, don't you think? Things have been so strange lately...
Friends seem to be very touchy...
The world is very moody...
I'm losing my happiness again and don't know why...
Nyah, I miss my old friends, why can't things go back to the way they were? And great now this song has to play. Oh lord, Beautiful - Christina Aguilera. There's things going on that I just don't know how to handle. Brett is really getting on my nerves because he is being a complete ass to me. I guess since he got with Mason, he thinks he is "better" than everyone around. He wasn't like that with me, yet no one is. They move on away from ugly little me and find someone better. I don't care anymore though. Whatever, I'm living and they can kiss my left testicle for all I care.
People wont tell me the things that I should know, and it's really irritating. I have so much stress on me to do good, and they aren't helping the situation at all. I don't know what to think anymore. I just can't wait to leave away from this place and be with someone that will listen to me and care what I have to say.
I'm tired...
Tired of the ass holes....
The ignorant people....
The people you thought were your friends....
I'm sick of everything. Oh well, enough of me ranting. Goodbye.
Samuel
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[28 Feb 2004|06:49pm] |
AHHHH I just fit in to this SMALL pair of pants that I bought last year in May. I was oging to give them to this girl, but I tried them on today for the first time in a while and showed my mom and she was like DAMN those look good, so kept them and am now wearing them out tonight with Nessa and Tim to go to the Movies. WOOT, I'm happy
Taaaa,
Samuel
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[28 Feb 2004|03:34pm] |
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I had a great time last night...hehe ;) bye bye
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Well after another hoot'n and holler'n day at school I'm sitting here in front of the computer updating my journal since I haven't in a while. It's been an alright day I guess. Other than the fact I hate my Calculus class along with the people in it and the teacher. In general though, I think that I had a pretty decent day. Woke up around 9:20 to go to school at 10 and then sat there and didn't really do anything at all.
I've been feeling really good about myself lately. I've been recieving a lot of compliments from people and it's just making me feel really good about myself as a person. I've been down, but now I'm happy and so is Kristina, go girl.
I have SUCH a busy day tomorrow, I have to go to drama after school until 6, and at 7 I have a beta club induction ceremony that I have to give a speech at, and then play this challenge of the minds game against Lovelady or something like that. So yea, I have a really long day tomorrow, so that should be fun.
Last night I went out with Ryan to get him a tatoo finally. He got this cute little trible tatoo on his lower back that faded from green to blue. It looked really good on him since his skin is so fair. When I turn 18 him and I are going to get the same tatoo. We are going to get a black sun around our belly buttons, and then a few months after that I'm going to go back and get a crescent moon with stars on my right shoulder blade. I think that it will be really good, and it's a unique contrast of the two in my eyes.
I can't wait to leave. I've determined that if I don't get the Smith-Hutson scholarship for Sam Houston, then I'm leaving two days after my birthday in June on the 15th to go stay in Austin to look for a job before school starts. Heather and I should be going after spring break to look at apartments, but you never know with her, and I'm just hoping that she doesn't find a REALLY expensive one, because I wont be able to afford it and I'd love to live with her.
I miss my Rhiannon baby a lot lately. They have been playing our "song" on MTV a lot lately, My Immortal by Evanescence. When I hear it I think of her and how she cried on the way home with me and Erin one night coming from Huntsville.
Ahh well, everything will work out in the end, it always does, and I'm enjoying single life to the fullest right now.
Taa,
Samuel
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[21 Feb 2004|03:36pm] |
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yesterday was such a bad day. I wanted to scream and cry after I came out of the solo room I performed. I had the biggest memory lapse in the world and I knew that I had the solo down, I know that I could have done my best. The guy told me that I had the best sound he has heard from anyone my age that played my instrument, but I had too many memory lapses to make it to State. I wanted to cry. I know that I could have done better, this voice inside wanted me to ask if i could do it ALL over again, I knew that I could have gone to state and made a one there. While practicing I had it perfectly down, but when I got with the piano I had a big brain fart and forgot everything on the second movement. WHY! GAH!!
I'm going with Erin now hopefully I'll feel better and if not, oh well..Bye
Samuel
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Cat died, middle of road, bloody and warm. NYAH!! i hate people...
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